Fighting my Fears

Man this is crazy, I truly don’t know where to begin. But I know that in order to begin you must put one leg forward.

Have you ever had a great idea, knew exactly how to execute that idea but when it came time to execute that idea you got stuck? Well I have, and I know i’m not the only one who has been there. I often call that being “Mentally Fat”. Now i’m not talking about being physically out of shape. No I am talking about when you have a bunch of head knowledge and know exactly what to do but don’t know how to do it. I’ll share this story with you. When I was a youth pastor back in 2006-2007. I absorbed all types of material, I went to conferences, workshops, I networked like crazy. If you had an event with youth in your name, especially if you had anything to do with urban youth ministry I was there. Front row and center. You see because I wasn’t trained, I didn’t go to school on how to become a youth pastor. So I did whatever I had to do in order to learn. I just absorbed everything from all of the great leaders out there. I had some great relationships with people like Larry Acosta of Urban Youth Workers, Urban D of Crossover Church (Flavor Fest), Edward Spec Beyonet (designer, Cross Over Church), Micah Espinoza (youth pastor, leader East Denver), Victor Nellum, Salt Wall. And the list goes on. You see I sat under the leadership of some giants in youth ministry. But when it came time to execute I got stuck. It’s what I called being Spiritually Fat.

There are many factors that played into that budgets, resources and so on. But one of the biggest things holding me back… was FEAR. I can honestly say I was scared of what could happen. Crazy thing is that it is Oct. of 2015, and to this day I still struggle with fear. You see, this is my company blog, and i’m disclosing personal matters, let alone a faith based topic. Which is a no no in business especially if you want to be successful in your field. There are so many other things I can address that are relevant and relate to me. But these things have held me back for years of not being my true self. And i’m sick of it, I am tired of being my own worst critic and holding myself back.


Because in order to defeat your fear or get out of being mentally/spiritually fat you have to just start. Many of you reading this have huge dreams, some have business, dream clients, dream vacations, inventions, passions ect. But you will never achieve that passion of yours if you stay stuck. Begin by making a plan and then just go. Don’t hold back chase your dreams and watch what will happen.
In order to win the race you must first begin by taking the first step.