Fighting my Fears
Man this is crazy, I truly don’t know where to begin. But I know that in order to begin you must put one leg forward.
Have you ever had a great idea, knew exactly how to execute that idea but when it came time to execute that idea you got stuck? Well I have, and I know i’m not the only one who has been there. I often call that being “Mentally Fat”. Now i’m not talking about being physically out of shape. No I am talking about when you have a bunch of head knowledge and know exactly what to do but don’t know how to do it. I’ll share this story with you. When I was a youth pastor back in 2006-2007. I absorbed all types of material, I went to conferences, workshops, I networked like crazy. If you had an event with youth in your name, especially if you had anything to do with urban youth ministry I was there. Front row and center. You see because I wasn’t trained, I didn’t go to school on how to become a youth pastor. So I did whatever I had to do in order to learn. I just absorbed everything from all of the great leaders out there. I had some great relationships with people like Larry Acosta of Urban Youth Workers, Urban D of Crossover Church (Flavor Fest), Edward Spec Beyonet (designer, Cross Over Church), Micah Espinoza (youth pastor, leader East Denver), Victor Nellum, Salt Wall. And the list goes on. You see I sat under the leadership of some giants in youth ministry. But when it came time to execute I got stuck. It’s what I called being Spiritually Fat.
There are many factors that played into that budgets, resources and so on. But one of the biggest things holding me back… was FEAR. I can honestly say I was scared of what could happen. Crazy thing is that it is Oct. of 2015, and to this day I still struggle with fear. You see, this is my company blog, and i’m disclosing personal matters, let alone a faith based topic. Which is a no no in business especially if you want to be successful in your field. There are so many other things I can address that are relevant and relate to me. But these things have held me back for years of not being my true self. And i’m sick of it, I am tired of being my own worst critic and holding myself back.
In order to win the race you must first begin by taking the first step.